Thursday, July 25, 2013

The Bottom of the Glass

There's a care-free - care-less? side of me that pours the wine
And toasts to you - to us. We are happy. But there is also a side -
- an exposed nerve that is struck with each can's opening crack
Burdened memory begs, "Are things as good as they seem?"
I hastily gulp my wine to drown the doubt. I say I'm fine. 
We? are? fine? Logical Thinking looks for a way out, 
Edges of the lies stab from the inside-out
My breath reeks heavily of doubt
Another glass tells me it's okay
The pain pretends to go away
can't help 
but maintain
every reminder from a sopping wet past.
There is no way out from the bottom of the glass.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Warning Label

She draws you in.
You feel her first bite.

It stings at first,
But there's barely a fight,
Because then comes the rush,
The numbness makes it alright.
She fills up the emptiness,
Warms blood that turned cold,
Then she promises to stay 
Says you two will grow old.

In rare moments of clarity,
You know it's a trap
But she fills up your cup
And she rubs your back. 

She puts on a mask, a friendly decoy
That distracts you with laughter,
And provides a fake sense of joy.

Then the head aches begin,
And your stomach won't heal
Until you've forgotten what it's like -
- to feel pain. to feel well. to feel. 

She's a silent fluid predator
Slipping down your throat
And unless you catch her,
She'll completely take you out. 

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Please Remember?

Can we remember our opinions on how others' should work? 
How we would fix all these people that hurt? 
Because we have easy answers for everyone else. 
We have the answers to it all, within ourselves, 
Derived from our experiences, permanently ingrained. 
Can we remember that? That we know everything? 
I'll look at your answers, you look at mine. 
If we can just remember every time we smile,
To find compassion with every frown,
Can we remember this? So forever doesn't drown?
Do we even know if forever is real? 
Can we remember that forever is here? 
Can we forget?
And know what is now? 

...what about now? 

Let's not remember. Let's just be. Let's just know:

The way your body feels against mine, 
The way you kiss me like it's the first time,
Let's just know how we feel without fear - 
Let's know nothing beyond right here.